Hi friends. I know it’s been a while. As you can imagine, life here has been a bit turned upside down. But, our family has been strong and is getting through the loss of my dad one day at a time – there really is no other way. It’s probably the saddest and strangest thing I have ever been through. Saddest for obvious reasons. Strange because you know that one day it will happen, but you never are ever ready for when it does. And especially when it’s sudden. You guys have been such a wonderful support and just getting messages and posts with nice words have really helped more than you could ever know – so thank you again!
In my eulogy I talked about how my dad influenced my life and I mentioned how he got me interested in critical thinking, which eventually led me down the attorney career path and the like. A week ago (I cannot believe it’s going to be three weeks on Friday), I started thinking about one of the biggest influences he had in my life – food.
My dad was in the hospitality and catering business for a long time (pretty much all his life). When we were little, he would cook for us on occasion. But when he did – it was marvelous. I remember him putting so much attention and love into what he cooked and maintained a creativity about it all. It really did inspire me to be the foodie I am today. In fact, thinking back far, he would talk to me about food all the time – and what he liked to cook and eat. Thinking back not so far, the last interaction we had was over family dinner and we were discussing food again – our favorites, what we hated, what we loved to cook, etc. Don’t get me wrong – my mom is a fabulous cook but it’s my dad that had a real passion for it.
This has really been inspiring me to get back into the kitchen and start creating again, and sharing (with you) again.
What’s also strange is how life moves on. It’s as if my world was turned upside down but people kept going. I’m scared that I’m going to forget what he sounds like, laughs like, looks like, what his hands feel like, smells like, etc. And I’m sad he won’t ever get to meet Baby Binks. And, I don’t have any nice words of wisdom because we’re all just figuring it out right now. All I can say is – one day at a time.